It's weird how one person can make you feel so insecure about yourself. How one person has the control to do such a thing. What a mad world...
I am in desperate need of a holiday. Deeper need than ever before. I have been dillusional about the past 8/9 months of my life. That's mad. Some deeper emotional isshhh.
I need a hug, Nick where are you??
You can't force someone to love you, either they do or they don't. Just because you love someone doesn't mean they'll love you back. You, however, need to have limits. You can't take whatever someone will throw at you in the name of love. The word love is abused by the world. If someone makes you feel like shit, like the world is crumbling around you or like you are not worth half of what you are - they don't love you. Don't believe if they say they do, they did or they will. They won't.
'Love is patient, love isn't always kind. Love will make you smile, cry and wonder; it'll never be perfect but perfection isn't reality. Love is not settling because what you have is all you have ever wanted, it fulfills all your wants and needs. It's a smile when you're down, a shoulder to cry and someone to share yourself with'
Off to bed now,
I'll face the world tomorrow.
Love Nat x